Kind of? I've ended up forming weird beliefs about the afterlife, where there is one but it isn't really anything, it's like an index of all that's existed and once we pass on we're just among all that has ever been created by human imagination.
The only reason why I don't fully believe in anything is from a level of personal experience, when I was 18 I caught on fire, I was rushed to the hospital and ER, in terrible amounts of pain. Through that pain I had a lot of realizations.
The biggest realization is that there is a John C. Lilly-esque collective consciousness which can be accessed through the usage of LSD and that this collective consciousness manifests itself in the material realm as the form of Gods, Occult Experiences, and so on. This also means through the
shared lense of reality and the mutual soul (which are nodes on a network for each individual) we are able to experience the occult and manifest new gods and occult experiences into existence with old Gods dying out or changing form along with unnamed demons and gods being formed via
collective experiences and horrors which humanity has faced throughout it's long existence.
This was combined with the usage of Lacanian ideals into understanding how experiencing the Lacanian Real through Trauma basically allows us to better understand the material without being distracted by the imaginary order and symbolic order used to construct a reality of which we
perceive the world in a more comfortable less disconcerting way. This reality is also where we create the gods which we perceive the collective consciousness through, but also has the spiritual realm to it where all ideas created by this collective consciousness manifest.
The diagram was made by a friend who helped me understand this by putting it onto a chart for it to be somewhat more legible.