owls???

okay, so this might be WEIRD ASF but for the past week I've been having dreams about owls.

Before Kendrick fans come after me, it isn't like that. I've been going through some traumatic and stressful events this past year and im not sure if it has anything to do with that, and before you ask.."yes i am DEFINITELY one of those girls who google what my dreams signify." I've looked up a few things it could mean and everything was about "a dead loved one coming to visit me." or "balance and personal growth." The last dream i had was a few days ago and i had a mini pet owl, i looked at it on my hand, looked away, looked back and the next thing i know, it was dead. Can someone PLEASE explain to me WTH is happening? Like okay owl city calm down.

Thanks in advance,

                  Your local insomniac PHANTVM