I keep having these reoccurring nightmares where its like an apocalypse but everyone's out to get me and just the entire time I'm being chased and they always kill my friends and family right Infront of me but sometimes they're totally unaffected and it makes me feel crazy and there's never a conclusion either I just wake up at a random point. I've tried killing myself in them but it never lets me, I've also tried just giving up but its usually then that some big bad kills everyone i love so i have to keep going to get revenge :(