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I want to move out, but I have nowhere to go and I'm scared of being homeless. I'm always being threatened to be beaten until my bones crush by my ""mom"". She doesn't think I deserve anything better in life. She'll just roll her eyes and call my mental and physical health problems " extra shit". I'm sick of being treated like this basically my whole life and I want to find somewhere else that would be safer to be. I'm started to have suicidal thoughts for the past several years and I tired of being miserable. I want to know what's good there could be in my life. I know I have problems and have self-destructive behavior, but my mom always try to shape me as some monster that loves to hurt people just because I have problems with my mental health. I just want to get better. I just want to be happy. Sometimes I feel like I don't fucking deserve anything.

I just don't want to bother my mom anymore. I just want to be a better person. I want to have my own independence so I don't have to bother anyone for help. I just want to be a regular person and not feel like I don't belong. 

I feel like no one I know will care(which is basically no one).


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Reply by Kitty <3

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You can call a help/crisis hotline or report her to an authority/police. If it helps, create a safety plan for when you feel like hurting yourself or others (e.g, stress relief activities, breathing techniques, holding blocks of ice in your palm, self-teaching martial arts/self defence). If possible, make sure you have a safety net, like a friend/relative’s house that’s safe to stay at. Take your time, asking for help isn’t always easy to do. Thank you for being so strong even though you shouldn’t have to be. I’m absolutely horrified to hear of all the stress, mistreatment and suffering you’re enduring. It’s been two years since you posted this, and I’m so sorry I only just found your post now. I hope you still found my response and I really hope things gets better for you 🙏✊🏻


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Reply by Amante

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i feel u. my mom grounded me today and wouldnt stop screaming and yelling at me until I got on the bus. but i got on the bus in tears.


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Reply by francis, fran

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i'm so sorry.

all of the other posts seem to have the best advice.

if you want, i would like to be your friend. that's all i can do though.


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Reply by sylwii

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First off, what you are going through sounds horrific, I'm so sorry, and never feel like you don't deserve happiness because you do.

You should tell a teacher or family or someone who you trust, it might be scary but I promise it is worth it. If you have no one to help you, well then you might have to escape if your really in serious danger which it sounds like you are. Call a runaway hotline or a child abuse hotline. and don't give up on life you are strong!


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