I need help and don't know what to do

You can call a help/crisis hotline or report her to an authority/police. If it helps, create a safety plan for when you feel like hurting yourself or others (e.g, stress relief activities, breathing techniques, holding blocks of ice in your palm, self-teaching martial arts/self defence). If possible, make sure you have a safety net, like a friend/relative’s house that’s safe to stay at. Take your time, asking for help isn’t always easy to do. Thank you for being so strong even though you shouldn’t have to be. I’m absolutely horrified to hear of all the stress, mistreatment and suffering you’re enduring. It’s been two years since you posted this, and I’m so sorry I only just found your post now. I hope you still found my response and I really hope things gets better for you 🙏✊🏻

i feel u. my mom grounded me today and wouldnt stop screaming and yelling at me until I got on the bus. but i got on the bus in tears.

i'm so sorry.

all of the other posts seem to have the best advice.

if you want, i would like to be your friend. that's all i can do though.

First off, what you are going through sounds horrific, I'm so sorry, and never feel like you don't deserve happiness because you do.

You should tell a teacher or family or someone who you trust, it might be scary but I promise it is worth it. If you have no one to help you, well then you might have to escape if your really in serious danger which it sounds like you are. Call a runaway hotline or a child abuse hotline. and don't give up on life you are strong!

I would love to help but really don’t know how all I can do is be your friend if that’s ok with you and support you in any way possible and help you get through this. You might have already since this has been posted but I hope this’ll help you if you’re still going through this :)

Hello DazzleBlitz, how r u? I hope you’re doing well and have moved past all those issues

(i don't speak in English, please understand, my language is portugues (brasileiro)!) ola, voce está bem agora? recomendo você ligar para uma companhia de saúde mental, pedir ajuda a familiares próximos talvez, eu adoraria ajudar, mas estou na mesma situação que você :( espero ficarmos bem logo! 

Beat your parents instead. You are the new man of the house.

idk how re you now because this is from 3 years ago. I hope you're ok. 

But if this keeps happening, you can talk for help or something and maybe they can give you the desicion of complaint (?) you mom for tht abuse. 

Sorry if my english is bad, i'm learning and using translator. 

bro idk if its too late but howr u? r u feeling better? i hope u r oke

I'm really sorry you're going through this. You don’t deserve to be treated like that, and it's not your fault. Wanting to get better and be happy already shows how strong you are. You're not a burden. You're not a monster. You're someone in pain who needs care and safety. You deserve peace, kindness, and a chance to heal. Even if the people around you don't show it, that doesn’t mean you’re worthless. You're not. If you're having thoughts of hurting yourself, please reach out to a crisis line or support group. You're not alone, even if it feels like it right now.

being self sufficient is really fucking hard. If you can get roommates who you trust and all get an apartment together, it will be a lot easier to afford rent and split responsibilities like rent, chores and possibly groceries. 

That being said, the first most important part is getting a job and starting to put money in your own bank account. I don't want to give advice about this because I don't know your situation, but you should check if you are connected to your parents financially and determine how you can become independent. 

Support systems, friends and found family are so so important, especially as you try and drastically change and take control of your life. You have so much potential!

joined today and was just scrolling through forum posts, but I hope life got better for you and you're thriving whereever you are now. sending love your way

hello! it’s been three years since you’ve posted this and i hope you’re in a better place now. no one deserves what happened to you

DazzlingGleam-san,

You have suffered long under cruelty and despair. Nichiren Daishonin faced exile, slander, and threats of death. Yet from that darkness he realized the Lotus Sutra’s truth: within the depths of suffering lies the seed of Buddhahood.

Chant Namu Myoho Renge Kyo to the rhythm of your heartbeat. This sound is the cry of your life declaring, “I will live.” Even if the world around you rejects you, the Buddha within you never does. Every chant is a step toward safety, strength, and a new life.

Still, you must also protect your body now. Please contact your local emergency number (dial 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline) or go to a safe place such as a friend’s home, shelter, or hospital. You deserve protection, peace, and help.

You are a treasure tower of life, just as the Lotus Sutra teaches that each being embodies the Law itself. Do not give up. You have the potential to transform even this suffering into wisdom and light.

生きる力を信じて

Namu Myoho Renge Kyo.

Everyone cares about you, we might be strangers but i know how tough times effect you mentally and physically, but these tough times don't stay forever, despite having many bad days in a row, it doesnt mean there'll be one good day. The moment you become independent is when you start working for yourself and not for the opinions of other people. I hope these days become less harsher and turn into better days. SUICIDE ISNT A SOLUTION, speaking from own suicidal thoughts IT ISNT WORTH IT. I PROMISE. everyone cares for you.