complicated things.

i never thought i'd be involved in a complicated relationship that wasn't juvenile. a couple of days ago, a girl that's so special to me let me know that she simply can't be my friend anymore. i miss her so much. she is misunderstood about how i feel, although she is right about some things. i feel awful, when the clock strikes 2020 i can't handle it. no replies needed i'm just so emotional the past few weeks. nothing to numb it. miss her so much. i don't want her to be gone forever, i sent her an email with my side of the story. i pray to god she reads it but there's no way of really knowing if she will.