Venting Space

umm so it is a long story lol basically i have abusive parents and my whole family takes out their anger on me. just yesterday my dad was yelling at my brother for leaving freezer pop wrappers on the floor and my popa come up to me and yells at me saying i don't deserve anything  because i am the reason why this family is falling apart and this morning i was doing school work on my computer and my popa was vacuuming and he said i was being rude because i wasn't helping him so he said from now on you will have to work to get your fair share of food, at least then you might deserve it. and everything has been really stressfully for the past few days and they aren't helping me with my depression and ED they are just making it worse and i want to get out of my house and away from my parents. 

I have issues at home I’ve never felt okay to talk about it cuz no one can help and I’m not sure what would happen to me and it was always “normal” anyway but it’s not great. Just counting on doing well in school to be able to leave atm.

I hope everyone in this thread who is venting is having a good day/good life in general. It's okay to feel upset, whether the problems you face are big or small. I wish for you all to receive the support you need and deserve. 💛

old post but i don't have anyone to tell this to

i was sexually assaulted a few months ago

i tried really hard to get over it but only a few people know, and she's a girl so i'm worried people would make fun of me. my "friends" were friends with her so they took her side and said that i wanted it because i had joke flirted with her before. i had told her to stop so many times before, but she ignored me. i've developed an ed, was cutting, seriously considering hurting other people or killing myself. it got so bad at one point i was almost placed on an involuntary hold. i had to miss school.

its so stupid because i feel like i should be stronger. i talked a lot of shit before but it feels like someone scooped out my insides. i don't feel in my body anymore.

i can't even say anything. but she doesn't deserve to live. none of them do.

Tw: sh and venting ig.

I hate how my opinions change about shit so often like one sec I'm like "I love my friends" but the second I think I did something or they leave me out I'm like "they hate me :(" but I don't unleash anger on them because getting treated shit is better than nothing. I only take out my anger if my bsf manipulated me or hurt me too long. I also sh. 2 years ago it started off as just out of stress and getting bullied. Now it's just me wanting to my skin rip or get more scars or due to my stupid intrusive thoughts. I hate intrusive thoughts I have to pinch myself really hard most of the time and I hate taking to myself and just making "eeeee :D" sounds when i'm happy and alone everything I do or say makes me feel ret4rd3d. I get bullied most of my life or belittled because I'm different. I used to be loud now I'm quiet. I need mentally ill people in my life. 

My  ex best friend hurt e and snitched on me twice for personal arguments through text or me wanting to kms. Now this time no one likes me much they pay attention to HER.

My bullying 2 years ago got so bad I sh in class in front of the people who were bullying for them to stop harrassing me. you hurt badly me i traumatize you back </3

The bullying was for a few months so yeah.

Amount of times I got reported or accused of sui/sh in skl: 5