First year in high school (because my country starts high school at 7th grade and ends in the 12th grade) was terrible, I couldn't get shit done, I always rushed things, it was that I couldn't get behind learning materials without someone at least make it more interesting to focus on, but later on school went better as we got face to face again, but my social life did took a toll on me, and forcing myself to talk with unfamiliar people again was a bit uncomfortable, since your old lads are in a different town than you so I couldn't cope, but slowly but surely, I did regain some acquaintances, few friends, I did better academically, but I'm feeling a bit lackluster with the social dynamics my classmates have, I somehow feel kinda alienated, especially with the last few months of grade 9, so I am looking for a few more friends from different sections in grade 10 to try and change that.
In the teacher side of things, few had been somehow iron fisted (for a lack of a better word), but mostly they're chill, adept and understandable.
As of now I joined my school newspaper again because I wanted to do stuff for once, outside of my personal hobbies and studies that might put out an impact, to improve my skills. Last year I was radio silent because I couldn't do a thing, because of lack of clear and concise communication partly, and I'm a bit unfamiliar with not getting assigned tasks in a group, do there's that, but this time, I did stuff now, as a layout artist, it was so charming to see some of my stuff be put out there, but alas, I'm focusing on stuff that mattered to me.
In the side of infatuation, I did have some, one time it was getting to the point of obsession but my classmates put me back in my senses, which I'm glad for. Another time I was having a crush on a girl that I admired for months, on a section different than mine, to the point I gave her flowers on Valentine's Day, it was somehow a bit different, I know the girl but I don't know much of her personality or anything aside from her name (which if you read my blog somewhere, you can see it as an initial, because I know that girl because she wanted me to get Photoshop installed in her macbook in the 8th grade, that's how I initially know her face and last name), and at around April-May, I confessed, via a handwritten letter forwarded to her friend (which was also my classmate's friend too), and she's not into the stuff, from what I have read. I accepted it with a heavy heart, even to this day I had a few weights in my shoulders because of that, but it is what it is I guess. It had a good run.
Overall, school is a huge rollercoaster for me I guess, especially high school. But I guess 3 more years will give me enough time to get myself a nice conclusion.
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