i dont know who i am or what i am doing

Just do something, and adapt based on feedback. Being overwhelmed and doing nothing won't get you any information. 

don't get overwhelmed by nothing, it'll take some time but something will happen that will give you motivation

though i wouldn't wait for motivation, i would use your personal discipline to do some things you may be interested in (books, movies, video games, animanga, etc.)

don't wait for something to happen, make something happen!

yo my friend i think your fucking zooted as helll and back