Agnostic Theism

I don't even know how to feel about a higher, sentient power anymore. I grew up a Christian but fell from that faith into atheism. Now I'm a practicing witch with no deity. The Practice calls to me but a god doesn't. I still can't reconcile a creator or creators. I want to because it's something that's been a part of most of my life and my religious upbringing gives me this urge to submit to a higher power (which, admittedly, if I were to submit to a good higher power, would feel good). But my logic resists it.

On a further note, are there any people that struggle with this as well? I feel kind of alone, here.

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I live in a very religious environment. The town I live in, the school I go to, the people I know and have known for a while are very catholic (with a few exceptions). It's been like this since I was born but I still ended up being agnostic. Even as a small child I had a hard time believing in god. There's either a god or no god, we can't know for sure.

Bueno mi familia en general es creyente pero no es que sean extremadamente religiosos,yo lo deduje cuando empeze a dudar al respecto realmente nunca tendremos manera de saber algo de tal magnitud además no creo ser la única en mi familia y siendo agnostico mi familia no lo sabe apuesto que ni saben el concepto del mismo pero vivo bien con eso asta que tengo que discutir con mi abuela al respecto mis puntos de vista pueden ser variados pero me quedo con esto y yo lo decidí por mi cuenta absolutamente nadie lo sabe más que yo estoy conforme con eso XD (aclaro mi familia no es católica es adventista)