My eyes

No one’s here yet so ig I’ll just mindlessly type into the void. Lately it feels like no matter where I look, I just see a hopeless future. Get a job? Fall into society and continue to hate yourself. Go back to school? Fall into society and hate yourself even more. Go outside? Over heat and hate yourself. All I wanna do is waste away in my bed and talk to my friends. And I realize that’s gross and unhealthy. But I just can’t change. I’ve tried for four years to no avail. Maybe I really am just hopeless.