I need him so bad, it's crazy

any advice for how to get over an unhealthy crush/obsession? 

As i've already mentioned on this group's forum and bulletin, i'm obsessed with my teacher S. He taught me last year, so it was wayyyy worse then. I would dream about his face, his voice, his hair....

let's recap everything I know about him (in a vague enough manner so I don't get arrested):

1. His hair is bouncy, shiny, and immaculate. Perfect, well kept, and the way his bangs frame his face???? UGHHHHHH
2. He seems to shop at like J.Crew and banana republic. Super academia vibes, knit sweaters rolled up to his elbows, fancy jackets and shoes, perfectly fitted pants. (he has a nice butt what can I say)
3. He loves the same music i'm into, we've connected plenty over my music taste. Can't be too specific, but it surprised me pleasantly!!!
4. he's married (God, why...) and they have a kid so......

Anyways, I know a lot more. I know the region he lives in, and the color of his walls inside his home. (What can I say, I'm dedicated....) It was an old pass time of mine to follow him discreetly around campus, or position myself right outside his office to talk, or just say hi. Every class, I cracked SO many jokes. His laugh and smile are so elegant and reserved, like he's trying not to. It's cute as hell.

WHAT DO I DO... I know him so intimately, yet I also know nothing at all. I have little idea about where he went to school, how he grew up, what he does for fun. Maybe I'll learn more, slowly this time. More chill, y'know?

Seriously, I'm doomed. I like him too much! it's not healthy, or right. But he won't leave my brain!!!!!! what do I do? Do I just try to erase him from my memory, or lean into it all the way? Full 'Miller's Girl' moment?

continued on my blog cuz UGH (link only tho): https://blog.spacehey.com/entry?id=2093784