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thinking about my ex (venting and in need of advice)

Posted by a4gel

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i have been thinking about my ex boyfriend in a non romantic way since we broke up 2 months ago. i have no romantic feelings for him whatsoever, we ended on bad terms and i have a lot of hatred towards him because he not only went behind my back, he went behind all of my friends backs and even my now boyfriends back. when i think about him, it is all about karma coming to him and i feel bad for thinking about him at all because i want to forget him, but my brain is not letting me calm down with these feelings of hate. everything i see him, i want to yell at him and tell him about how much of an ass he is, but i have to control myself. context of our relationship, this was a high school relationship (which i am still in), he was my first major boyfriend, my first kiss, and a first for a lot of physical stuff. i also went on my first date with him. we dated for like 10 months, so i am not sure if this is a normal thing that people feel after their first serious relationship, or if it isn't normal. i do feel like in love, i am a little obsessive and very romantic, for example, i get my partners a lot of gifts, i write long letters about my love for them, and i think about them all the time, so i am not sure if it is a result of all the obsession being turned into an obsession of hating. i saw this thing that your brain has a hard time forgetting someone that you have been with for a while, so i am not sure if it is that. does anyone else have this problem or advice to help me stop thinking about him?


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Reply by Maber

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I think you might have to accept the fact you might never forget him completely. Sounds like he was your first many things, so... Your feelings may be strong right now, but they WILL get smaller as you live life and make new experiences. Heck, I still think about my past relationships from years ago even though some of them sucked so bad. It'll get better though, give yourself some slack for sure !


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Reply by luna

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Hi! Have you tried putting down in paper (or like, in your notes, doesn't have to be physical) all you feel for him? Maybe you just need to get these things of your system. I felt the same way when I cut off my ex definitively and (I admit I was drunk) but I did send them a text with some of the things I felt. However, sometimes you do have to make peace with the fact that you can't always have 'closure'. 


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