Should I start dating a girl?

I have been confused for a while, but it hasn’t been taking much of a toll on me because of other things I’ve been busy about. 

I’m a 14 yr old girl that mostly has had dating relationships w guys (all were unserious). But none of them felt…good to be in. They didn’t last long, and not having an emotional connection with someone that I’m with overwhelms me. Most of the guys I’ve dated would always take things too fast, and would tell everyone about our relationship. It didn’t feel right.

My first “relationship” funny enough, was actually a girl back in primary school. When she asked me out through a note, I’ve never felt so flattered. Since we’ve been hanging out beforehand, we’ve already had a good connection. I started hanging out with her all the time during lunch and recess and I’ve never felt more happier. But the she told me that it was a prank and she hadn’t felt anything for me. I stopped being friends w her soon after.

I’m scared to be with a girl. Not because I don’t like the idea of it, but I’m scared to get hurt again. I’m also scared that she might be like my previous boyfriends. 

What should I do??