therapy

So, my mental health has been horrible for past 6 months, and I feel like it's time to make a change. I want to find a psychologist, but I have some concerns I just wanna share... 

1. I live in a homophobic/transphobic country, and I won't feel comfortable if the psychologist doesn't treat me the way I want to be treated. Im afraid2 talk to them about this in the future, because it could bring trouble to me and my family if the therapist is against it (in Russia, there still is a culture of ratting people out on for literally anything, ugh. bunch of bastards). 

2. I have no idea where to start. Where and how do I find someone who meets all my requirements? someone who is queer-friendly and a good professional. Someone who won't tell my parents what's going on with me. (I don't rlly trust them) 

3. What if we won't be able to afford regular sessions? We have a pretty unstable budget, and I don't want to let my family down. 

4. I don't know how I'll balance therapy with my school, which is really tough right now. I'll be working with a tutor, so how will I find time for myself and therapy on top of all that?

I hope my mom will be understanding. I'll have to try to explain why it's so important to me for therapist not to be transphobic. Maybe I'll choose different words so it doesn't sound so obvious (im closeted). oh holy. 

I really want to start, maybe then I'll finally find some peace in my life.