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I should be at the club rn -sob-

Dude, I'm 26, living with my parents, in a country where I don't speak the language, don't have any friends, not able to go out, etc. and I've been down and out for almost two years cus I had to leave London cus I was burnt tf out.

Like, I had that taste of adult independence, but then I sort of "lost" it again.

Now, I'm here, in my room, pretty much at the end of my mid-twenties, wishing and wanting to be AT THE FUCKIN CLUB RN!!!! I wanna be at parties, I wanna be throwing them, I wanna be dancing in dark rooms and doing drugs with my friends! I wanna be listening to good music while I take a fuckin sip or a shot. I wanna be stood outside at 1:30 in the am on a cold night, letting my body heat leech out into the air as I eye up the kebab shop across the road for afters.

By the time I had to leave the life I had built myself in the city I had become an adult in, I was *too* broken down and shattered to be able to do any of that stuff. If I went to a club in that condition, or even had people round my flat who felt the need to shout over each other for some fuckin reason, I would've had a meltdown. But now that I've recovered from the burnout, god, I want it so bad again!!

And idek if it's cus I genuinely miss it, or just cus I've got FOMO or some shit. Like. What I envisioned clubbing to be before I was able to actually able to do it for myself is not what I ended up getting. I mean, it was alright. But I feel like clubbing culture in the 2000s and mid-2010s was way different to what it actually became by the end of the 2010s, and obviously, clubbing was kind of obliterated come 2020.

But yeah.

I guess I'm just putting this out there to see if there's anyone else out there who feels the same way. Or if there's anyone out there who *is*  actually living this sort of life rn and has thoughts about it.

Has anyone had any good party/nightlife recently?


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Reply by Swordquest

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I spent a long time looking for a good time. Found my way into the rave scene n had lots of fun there. Dancing n drugs in a dark room is bout as good as it gets. I met lots of interesting people and some I still call friends to this day. Honestly most my friends are from the rave and the punk scene. What drew me from it was the shallowness i eventually felt. I think theres just something warming about creating your own fun. I played hide n seek with strangers some nights ago, a game I dont play much as an adult, even less so with other adults. It was the most I've laughed in a while. Clubbin n all is really fun, but there really is this warmth that's missing. Ive' felt it at a few events, where it really does feel like everyone here is aligned, but an occasional gem those are. I don't know your situation, but follow the music however best u can. Just show up where there's gonna be music you enjoy, the rest works itself out. People tend to llike make a function out of an event instead of just going to be present and open to the moment. Hope u know u arent missing out on too much. Just working on hobbies n skills is bout the coolest thing u can really for yourself. 


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