The post-breakup message I sent to my ex got leaked to my entire year!!

First let me start with some background facts:

- I am a 15 year old sophomore at my highschool where everybody is connected and knows each other.

- I was a very weird and unlikeable kid growing up, and everyone in my huge highschool knows and remembers that, as i went to elementry school with a lot of them (we dont have middle schools, it's just 1st grade to 8th grade as elementry and the rest is highschool)

- I yap wayyyyy too much. If there is something im exicited about everyone is going to know, I can't whisper to save my life and I am very much too loud for my own good. I have never spilled anyone else's secrets like that, but holyyy have I made my life hell with this flaw of mine. I think this comes from being younger, thinking no one is listening to me anyways and even if they do they won't care because I wasn't very popular, however now I've become a little bit more normal and somewhat of a more tolerable human being so apparently people care about what little events are going on in my personal life.

- I am a very sensitive and emotional person. I expiriance emotion very deeply and very harshly and sometimes its awsome and sometimes it really sucks. in this case it really sucks. I also take things to heart often, and its hard for me to shake off stuff. 

some background about my ex boyfriend: 

He used to go to the same elementry school i switched to in the 8th grade and so he was good friends with my best friend who went to this school as well. We hung out together once and started talking on Instagram after that. It was my first encounter with a relationship and anything like that, so this experience really felt serious and left a mark. He also knew that, and at first was patient and seemed genuinely fine with that, but after a few weeks he kinda started pressuring me to give him more in all aspects of the relationship. He took up all my free time, he always wanted us to get more and more sexual even though I was really uncomfortable with that.

Now let me also mention that this dude was a ginormous slut, he had a 21 body count and 4 ex-girlfriends at FIFTEEN (I swear to god you cant make this shit up), he had countless red flags, he drank, he was a weirdo (in a sexist, creepy, weeb, anime porn way. Not cool at all) and he had like 5 tattoos (AT FIFTEENNNNN). At one point this guy literally told me that he knows better than me and that i should stop trying to have a good social life and just focus on our relationship (one month in, I WASNT EVEN 15 YET).

throughout our relationship he would text my bestfriend (which is also his friend) and ask her to suggest to me that I should get more sexual with him and do more. At one point he complained to her that he wishes I'd quit my sport (rhythmic gymnastics, which I've done for 7 years at the time  and is a huge part of me  that I love greatly) so that I wouldn't have calluses on my hands, and it would feel nicer when I did things for him (I didnt even want to do stuff for him in the first place and was already really uncomfortable with that). Without mentioning too many details (you've heared nothing guys, it was pretty fucking bad) it's safe to say I felt very used in this relationship for my body.

The last couple of weeks we were together, he sent me messages and I didn't respond. I already knew I wanted to break up with him and wanted to meet up to do it face to face like a decent human being. However, one morning at school I got a breakup text (not even a call or something) from him after saying all throughout our relationship that he'll never break up with me, and if it ever did happen it would only come from me. A week later I was informed that he was talking to other girls when we were together and was basically cheating on me for the last 2-3 weeks of it. 

In all honesty and fairness, we were only together for 2 and a half months but it really affected me since it was my first time with literally anything like that. 

so lets get into the story:

Yesterday I woke up at 3:42 a.m. to a text message from the class groupchat (sent by some popular dude I don't know who's not even in our class). I started reading it and to my shock and horror i slowly realized it was the long message i sent my ex after we broke up. Copy and pasted, word to word.

That message was written  4 monthes ago at 4am, while I was upset, emotional and on my period, and it has just now come back to bite me in the ass. The content of it is not pretty due to the circumstances and the fact  that he was honestly a pretty bad fucking person and it is now unfortunatly out for my entire year to see. 

Now since everyone in my school has already seem it, and it's highly unlikely anyone I know is going to find this account, this is the message translated to English:

"Hey, just wanted to say a few last things because I've officially given up on my shirt. Don't worry, you won't hear from me again.

So I just wanted to point out that you were a really bad boyfriend, especially considering your extensive experience. You made me feel super uncomfortable all throughout the relationship and you're a pretty shitty human being in general.

You are a huge walking red flag and I have no idea how I stayed this long and didn't try for myself.

I now completely understand why everyone told me that you're gay. You act like you don't even like girls. You go through them one by one, fuck them and move to the next one.

Good luck lovebombing in your next relationship that will last 4 months max and be insanely toxic,  i think it's time to realize that the common factor in all your relationships is you.

Praying for the next girls (girls being plural, of course) because I honestly don't think they deserve to be with you.

But hey cheer up, maybe by the age of 16 you will be able to reach a triple digit bodycount!! 

Hope this helps and that it's not too much for you to read at once ✌️"

Yeah I think it's safe to say I had a lot to say that was not said in the relationship. I honestly do stand by it. and still believe the things I said were completely true and I wasn't wrong in saying them. The problem is that now the whole school and probably also people from other schools know about that, and I don't want anymore social trouble than I already have. 

What is also very weird for me is the timing of it coming out. This is basically ancient texts in the gossip world, this happend LAST YEAR and the dude has a new girlfriend and lives in a different city. And he is very much not the type popular people like. I have no idea who could have leaked it.

it is currently 00:06, Monday, October 6th, 2025. 

HELPPPPPP IM GONNA KMSSSSS