Forum:
I find myself disgusting most of the time; I’m 15, though I still think of myself to be disgusting, a freak, like what am I doing with my life; a boy classmate has to hold my hand or just poke me for a drama project and my brain gets aI'm fucked up making up bullshit scenarios about me and him even though I want nothing to do with. I was 14 at the time and falling, crushing over someone across the world from me and that’s also 2 times my age, 28 and my mind is that messed up to remain in contact with that man for a while. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, why my brain thinks of this fucked up concept, I find myself disgusting every time one of those thoughts pop up, I’m a child I don’t want to be thinking these things…
« Back to the venting (literally about anything) Forum
I disgust myself…
Report Topic
1 Reply
Reply by Denny 🛰
posted
You're not disgusting for having these thoughts, they're not your fault and im sure you've probably heard this before but it's true. You are not to blame for crushing on someone older than you, it is the person’s fault because they are the adult and they should know better and it's ok to want to keep contact and miss those things but im glad you got out because even if you felt you deserved that, you dont. You're better than him, you’re strong and im proud of you for even saying anything
Permalink