i don’t know what to do, i have literally nowhere to go. i feel sick every day. i have no friends, no family, no one i’m completely alone. work and hobbies bring me no joy, just the urge to hide and never see people again. every event makes me lose it; i’ve broken so many valuable things. it’s getting really bad. it used to be only mental, but now it’s physical too. i can only do basic things like work, sleep, work again. i don’t want to snap at everything, i just want to live like normal people. i’m disgusted with myself, i’m tired of living like this. what should i do?