Social issues

Guys, is it bad if i want friends knowing damn well I'm not a good one? Like sometimes I just really want somebody who I can chat and joke around with, but 99% of the time i hate interacting. Like i just wanna go m.i.a for days or months at a time, and I feel bad like im dissing everyone so i try still interacting with ppl but it's so draining and i hate it, but I want a friend who I can be open with. Somebody who I can stop the convo w/ by saying something along the lines of "Hey u mind if we talk later? I don't feel like talking anymore" or "Sorry i'm really tired, i'll ttyl.". Somebody who understands and i don't have to make excuses like i have a headache or whatnot. Also if we go a few months without talking, one of us could send a chat and we pick up where we left off. Idk if anybody even fits these standards, but I would love it if they did, yk? Yeah anyways my little yap sesh is over, byeee and hmu if u feel the same :')