I've been wanting to skate for years but can't afford a skateboard. I've also been wanting to play the banjo but can't afford one. I've been wanting to make arrowheads for years but I can't find the rocks for it anywhere. I've been wanting to animate but it's really hard on a phone and I've tried many ways. I've been wanting to make funny videos, like skit stuff, but I have nowhere to do it and I'm ugly and have no friends. It really sucks not being able to do what I want and what I feel makes me, me. Does that make sense? How do you keep your sense of self if you can't be yourself really? I just dream all day. I'm not able to get a job yet. I might be able to after my birthday but I'll be in school so many don't like to hire students. Only thing I can do that feels like myself is drawing and watching YouTube. I used to game but my mom took away my Xbox and in turn it feels like she took a part of my identity away. This isn't meant to be a vent, I'm just wondering how others cope with it and sharing my story.