i wanna stop so bad, like im hruting her by doing it and i dont wanna hurt my wife. its not just for her but for me, but i just, i feel like if i stopped i could be better for her. i started getting numb in the fourth garde and tahts why i started, to feel for once. but now, everytime i mention it, it like hurts her, and i dont wanna hurt her by hurting myself, or at alll. and ive promised not to do it but it was so hard to stop. and i wanna be honest with her and thats why i told her when i did. but by doing this to myself, im hurting her. and like i said, i hate causing her pain because shes my life. like my whole life is talking about her and talking to her, and i hate hate hate hurting her. ive been cutting down on how much i do it but temptation has me in a fucking headlock. i stopped for like two weeks once, which was a while for me, but then my friend gave me a razor blade. and like i can barely go a week now, sometimes it just one but still, whether its one or one hundred, its still not good. does anyone have some advice for how to stop??? like permanently or for as long as possible.