give me jjk fic recs!! (and my thoughts abt yuuji)

GUYS. I NEED MORE ITADORI ANGST ASAP!!!! THIS CANNOT GO ON ANYMORE!!!! SOMEONE HELP!11!!!1! any platform is okay, idc. the point is that ive found a few on ao3 and wattpad (GOD BLESS THE AUTHORS THAT WROTE THOSE RARE PEARLS) but the really were "a few" and i absolutely need more. lemme tell you, im sick of animes washing out their character's development, emotional traumas and trauma responses. yuuji was a cheery, perfectly normal 15 YEARS OLD TEENAGER that got THROWN into a new reality made of death, violence, ufamiliarity, guilt, terror and self-deprecation based sense of duty. the boy is tortured by cruel fate he's cursed by his own ambition, he's turned into a complete object, nothing more than a vessel, a tool, a potentially deadly one that needs to be collared and that must only obey to orders or else it's death. now, he's mildly glad with all of this, because at least he gets to protect people, he gets to honor his grandpa's will, but no matter how hard he believes, how toughly he fights, everyone still dies  in front of him. he's the complete opposite of what he's supposed to be. he reaches the point where he genuinely believes that all thats happened in shibuya is his fault because he's weak, stupid and worthless. In his eyes, they've died by his hands.

 Now, imagine your reality getting ABSOLUTELY DESTROYED  to this extent. do you think that a a few meaningless, bland and of such general nature words could fix everything all of a sudden? aka todo's "speech". he basically told him "lock the fuck in twin". while he was at his lowest point. Honestly, all of it seemed extremely ridiculous to me. and even more ridiculous was the way yuuji immediately stood up from where he was curled on the ground which was soaked by his own blood. "Oops_! major L moment, alright im back guys!". shut up. please cry. please god make him react to everything hes just been thru, crying is the only thing thats left to him at this point

edit: guys pls no itafushi i dont ship them🙏🙏🙏