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I feel a deep sadness that doesn't make me breathe, or much less think.

It dumbs me down, imprisons me in bed, makes me feel guilty and dehydrated.

The origin of it all I don't know what it is, because I'm so tired that I've forgotten the old days.

I don't concentrate and I don't live, I wander without any objective, I let myself be carried away by the breath of the wind, like a ghost I feel and behave as if I were invisible, but I'm not.

Others see me but I'm not there.

They ask me what's wrong with me, but I don't answer, I don't know either.

I'm so confused, inside my head I mix things up so that I can't reason.

I don't sleep well at night, this has been going on for a while, during the day I never know what to do, I can't do anything.

I stop in front of the books, I can't study.

What do I do now? Where do I start?

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