I am the shy kid

  I ve been working on my shynnes for the past 2 years and it was realy hard and exhausting  but  now I am able to raise my hand in class without getting heart palpitations and although I am severely awkward due to my lack of experience in communication (I only have one freind which is my cousin that is 5 years younger than me) I can start a conversation.

So now my biggest problem is that I try to talk more to them and laugh with them but they just don't treat me the same way they treat others they give me funny looks and say some sarcastic joke thinking I dont notice . No matter what I do they underestimate me . And I can't evan argue with them becouse I have this thing I kind of the fawn response when they are talking to me I just smile and say somthing nice .