I like a boy in my middle school, both of us are at the same grade, but not on the same classroom. We both are 13 so it's not such a big deal. But last year I was (and keep being) very shy. He was a new guy in my school because all of us meet us in the elementary school. But he wasn't sure of having new friends, we started talking because of a friend in common, the guy (I'm gonna call him Jay, but that's not his real name) was very shy like me, but we talked about music and videogames. After a few months we were friends, and I wanted to confess me to Jay. I was planning the confession for the next Monday. I was ready to tell him in private my feelings, and nobody knew my plans. But in our first recess I seat w my friend group (mostly girls) and Jay. They were talking bout how the last Saturday a girl (who I'm gonna call Leah, but reminder that's not her real name) and Jay kissed in my bestie's room, in her bed herself. I don't considered Leah as a friend but she was my friend's friend. In that exact moment i felt like how my eyes were bout to cry. But I resisted. Leah and Jay were a couple by 8 months, but Jay break up w her because she hurted him. I knew that wasn't a good moment to tell him my feelings. I waited for the next vacation, after the vacation, I was ready. But he flirting w the first grade girls and Karla (not her real name) a girl w a beautiful face, slim body and athletic. All the things I am not, Karla made me cry very times cause she made fun of my body, specifically my big cheast (I'm a d coup) and my wide hips and legs. The time passed and we don't talk anymore cause I told Jay that I was a little uncomfortable w the flirting w Karla, he fought and I want to forgive him because I still feel that, but because of the girls flirting w Jay and my shyness and insecurities i can't.
If only I was a little bit brave, in the past I would have a chance w Jay?
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