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Well, uh. I'm here again, on this forum. If you've read my posts on the forum, you may have noticed that my relationship with my partner.... hasn't been the greatest lately. I want to speak up here and... talk to someone. 

yesterday we had a conversation just about our relationship. he is tired of it. my tantrums and whining just on just bored him. i thought i was expressing my emotions, but i did it so openly and frankly that i insulted him all the time and i didn't notice it myself (i repeatedly asked him to tell me directly that i insulted him, but... I kept stepping on the same rake). we had such conversations more than once and I did change, but.... I kept coming back to the same state over and over again..... I still have that residue in my soul....