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I rlly dunno wHat I'm going to do abt my life. I am thinking to let it go, su1c1de. I'm so lost, so tired, I'm full of all of this shit. Everyday I force myself to wake up and move my ass from the bed and go to school.

I'm full, so full. I just want everything to end fast, but I'm so afraid, so scarEd from the future. My days looks like a dream, like... the vibe. Is crazy 'cuz I'm losting my mental health fast, rlly fast. My head is distorcing the reality and It's feeling like a stupid dream that never ends. I always think if I am real, if all of this shit is real. Help, I need a light.

I never talk abt my feelings 'cuz I don't want to disturb anyone, but this is hapening since I was 9. I just need help, Idk, maybe talk abt this? I just don't want to be insane. I just want this to end. I want to be happy like a child. I want to be reaLly happy.

I think I'm going to end myself if this fuck keeP hapening w/ me, I'm tired. I don't want to be a burden to my parents. Not anymore.


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Sounds like you need to talk about how do you feel with anyone, besides, probably no one here can help just listen to you.

Have you considerated going to theraphy?


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Reply by ｙｕｕｒａ　（ゑヒぉ）

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hey, I don't know you, you don't know me- but taking a look at your profile, you genuinely seem like a super sweet person. you're really young, and you have a lot of your life ahead of you. given you stated that you hardly talk about your feelings, I suggest you stop doing that. we tend to believe that if we burry our feelings, they'll go away. they do not, unfortunately, bottling up your feelings only intensifies them more. 

I don't know what you're dealing with exactly, or how well your relationship is with your parents- but I'll state it here, no matter how much stress you believe you make your parent deal with just by existing, they will always love you unconditionally no matter your mishaps. you are human, and still a child, mistakes are what makes you grow, pain is what makes us go forward. I know that right now it feels too much, and you don't understand what you're feeling fully, but please, don't keep it to yourself. your friends and loved ones care for you dearly, you are not a bother, you will never be a bother for expressing emotions. in fact, it's better to express your vulnerability openly to those you trust, while I know it may seem tantalizing, I swear to you just letting your heart out relieves some of the weight of your depression. 

please do not kill yourself, it's an extremely serious situation. your friends will no longer be able to call you to play a game, and your parents will have an empty room in their home with the memories of a child they once cradled so closely to their hearts. I promise it gets better, give it some time. no pain is forever, but death is.


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