reconnecting

had a long period (3-4) years where I felt disconnected from my spirituality and then kind of out of left field my therapist was pretty interested in using it as part of my healing process. I'm remembering just how different it feels to sense that spiritual existence and how much better I am when I'm connected to it.

I feel like for the first time in a while I'm able to self sooth and looking down at my body doesn't make me dissociate anymore it makes me feel grounded. I am myself again.

On the train I was able to meditate and calm myself down when I was feeling anxious. I've been taking more time to notice things about my experience and I've been enjoying the natural beauty of the world around me. I hope that it lasts, feeling present like this makes life seem so wonderful. Feels good being happy in spite of the strange times we live in.