rebirth & reborn.

(first piece on this forum!)

I feel myself being ripped out of the shell i have been developing in. i feel it all over me - everywhere, all at once. I have a new manner of speaking, but my thoughts don't feel like they belong to me. like I've been misplaced, hatched in the wrong house. But i'm not sure where i'm supposed to be placed. Where do i go? My body is ill fitting, it feels uncomfortable to walk on solid ground when i'm sure i should be sat silently, still. 

All i can do is say that i'm sorry that my words & actions aren't mine, they don't belong to me anymore. I'll continue to speak even if i'm untruthful doing so, so that i can learn how to stop biting my tongue every time i talk. I'll mimic the way you wanted me to move to the best of my abilities until you tell me i did it right. And then i will wait til my shells hardens, again. and i'll be reborn into something better, different. I'll thaw and come out new. again.