MMMBop

Tonight I'm writing about my aunt Tiffany. She died in 2006 when she was only 19 in a car accident. I was 4 years old when she died and over the years I've heard bits and pieces about her and shes someone I think I really would've wanted to meet. My dad always told me she loved me alot and there were a couple toys in my childhood she had actually bought for me. 

Sometime last year I was hanging out with my step grandma (her mother) and my aunt and uncle. It was brought up in conversation about my several year obsession with BTS... I was told I reminded them a lot of Tiffany when she was obsessed with the band Hanson. Their most popular song, a song she loved a lot, was MMMBop. 

MMMBop is an upbeat pop song. It's about how fleeting lifes moments are and how fast people and times can leave you. Hold the ones dear to you close, treasure the moments. To this day her mom and siblings listen to this song and think about Tiffany. Her passing brought a way new meaning and perspective of the song to them.

I dedicate this most and my spacehey account to Tiffany. I like to picture her on possibly just like this in the early 2000s. On fandom posts, watching their videos on MTV, going to their concerts. Maybe putting this out here, someone will see this and her memory will live on through some strangers on an internet she didn't get to experience.

When I think of it like this I can really understand the phrase "forever 19". Despite time passing, she will always be a 19 year old girl in love with a 90s boyband.

So, aunt Tiffany... I'm older than you now and I know you only saw me as a baby, and I know I don't have any memory of you but I'd like you to know I think about you every once in awhile. You had a lot of people who really loved you and I can tell from the stories they tell and your pictures you were a beautiful and kind human being. Your baby sister and brother are the best aunt and uncle I could ever ask for... You were a great big sister and as a big sister myself I will make sure to spend the time I can with them and cherish every moment before MMMBop, its gone <3