Well, what was last night...

I had a panic attack near my partner. and here's why. according to my partner, for months 2-3 months I acted like a friend with him, but with my perks. He's been patient for a long time, and he's given me one last chance. He doesn't see a good future and I get scared, and so does he. it turns out, as I found out, I don't know how to discern the fine line between friendship and relationship. I've taken some of his character traits, but I'm not applying them correctly. Even told me not to worry about him. I am in fact very nervous, not collected and pay attention to little things in a bad way. He set two conditions: that I develop as a person and that I be faithful to him. Neither of which I've done well. Where should I start? Maybe it's the little things that will change my outlook. I just don't want to change guys every week. I just want him.

Hopefully there will be a response to this postʅ（◞‿◟）ʃ