I Loved You, Too Late. And I still love you.

     Ever since that day, that certain day of November 9th, 2024---I couldn't get you out of my head. It's like a circus in my head, every day, because of you. Well, in a good way perhaps. I really wish we lived closer, knowing you live two hours away doesn't help me. I'm not old enough to drive, and not really you, yet. 

     Ever since that day, marching band championships, I could't get you out of my head. At first, it was me and my friend hosting your band, it was at first casual. We'd bring you throughout the day. But after your guys' performance, your friend asked my friend out right in front of me. Wow. Like that'd ever happen to me...But, after the whole thing happened. My friend got a text saying,M "My friend is interested in your friend, his name is Jared" Jared...Jared. 

     Ever since that day, I felt something different for once, it was unlike the other ones. You seemed, so different from other people I've liked. Well of course, I used to have crushes on people who didn't care about people in general. But this Jared...was something else. He was shy, sweet, charming, nice, thoughtful, hardworking, dedicated and all of this great things. I'm sitting over here wondering if I could ever be in his league. 

     Ever since that day, I couldn't stop thinking about if you actually liked me. At first, I didn't feel it until after we left each other and never saw each other again. It was so weird. We didn't talk for a month until December 6, 2024, when i found out that you were coming to my area to preform for some festival. I was excited but nervous to talk to you again. We seemed to hit it off well when we started the ACTUAL talking stage, it felt amazing. 

     Ever since that day, December 8, 2024, seeing Jared preform the best that he could was awesome, he seemed so happy and so successful. He is such a good trumpet player and also probably very good at soccer, hadn't seen him play, but i know in my heart that he's awesome. We made a lot of eye contact that day and we were like shy kids falling in love or something, i miss seeing him in person since he lives super far away. 

     Days go by, and we talked, and talked, and talked. It seemed like everything was going so great. Until winter break, days go by, we talked less and less. It worried me to death. I trusted his work when he said he was busy with soccer, school, band, and so many other things. I get it...everyone has a busy like whether or not you believe it. But i would've thought he had the thought to at least tell me how his day was, or even just talk casually like how we always do. It felt off.

     Days go by, posting stories on instagram, private ones, and i added his two close friends on it, Jess and Yoshi. I wanted to see if they'd give information to Jared, since, Jared doesn't have socials. Which is fine, i guess. But they recently told me to just "ask him out bro". Like what? I thought it's the guy that does it. I feel like, I love you, i loved you too late. i still love you.