WHY I THINK GOD DOES NOT EXIST

I'm going through the same crisis lol. I'll put my opinion, might be a bit long, if so I am sorry.

We have the group that awnsers this regarding the "If there is a God why is there evil" question:

Well because we humans have free will and we sinned so thats why there is evil, cuz lady Eve ate the frkn apple, blah blah Im sure u know it well. So yeah cuz Eve and Adam sinned the world was now fulled with sin and then someone comes and says "Oh but then why did God put the tree of life there" YEAH WHY DID HE? "Oh cuz again we had the free will to chose anything Cuz God wanted a genuine and meaningful relarionship with us". God being ALL MIGHTY, he KNEW Eve was going to be tempted by Satan, he knew Lucifer would grow jelous of him, he knew everything yet he did it. Him being all mighty, doesn't really needs us, cuz again WE NEED HIM, so I personally find the thought of not creating anything at all more adequate for his mighty needs? whatever you wanna call it. Because why as a all migthy being would I create a world where I KNOW that they WILL chose to sin and therefor making the world a cruel place for hald of the humanity. I would rather chose simply not to create anything at all, why if I don't need nobody, they need me, ALWAYS. 

That thought always makes me thing of God as a somewhat lonely individual despise him being ALL POWERFUL. Because if not I am afraid I'll think of him as an egoist entity, not in a bad way but yeah in a way where he was so lonely he wanted to be loved.

Anyway, there is one of my answeres. There's also the people who say " Evil is necessary in this world to grow as a person" But a lot of them don't even get to fkn grow. Tell that to a little kid in a hospital. "Oh but God has plans" Apperantly not for the kid dying of cancer. 

Then we simply have the people who NEED a God in their life because it gives them porpuse, it gives them hope, even if they might doubt he is not real, they rather believe, die and go into nothing if it was the case that they were wrong, rather then to not believe and end up in hell.

We also have some rare cases of people who say that Jesus was alive at some point but he died on the cross and that's it.

(sorry if they are any spelling mistakes, english is not my first lengauge.)

YES EXACTLY, and some people really do need god as a way to put in their faith and have hope in this stupid cruel world, and back when no one knew about science everyone js got convinced that there was a divine entity that created all of us and created the world we live in..

its also very weird when people say that "god loves everyone equally" when there are people that are suffering from things that we cannot even imagine, there are genocides, bombings, corruption, murders, and a lot happening, does he not love the victims of these things? i just don't understand a lot of stuff maybe because I have ton shits of religious trauma...