How to make friends here?

i think talking to ppl thru blog posts and bulletins and messages and stuff is the best way to make frendz tho im also kinda struggling wkth that LOL ….. i also wish forums were a lil moar active :(

Me too, replying on a blog post feels too personal for me to do if I don't know someone but I suppose I should get used to it ^^

This is so real. I honestly don't really care about making friends, I just wanna chat with people for fun. It really really sucks that the forums aren't that active because that would have been my go-to way to talk to people. Without it I mostly just lurk on here. I'm also too shy to talk on other peoples blog posts, I'd probably only be able to do it if I actually knew the person.

Yeah, agreed! Idk, I love lurking but I get bored of it sometimes and wanna open my page to a bell icon. For that reason I've just been replying in any thread that interests me even if chances are low I'll get a reply. Also you had Mother series phase? That's awesome, me too.

Yeah lurking on here does get boring after a while, I sometimes reply in random threads too in hopes of getting a reply but I don't have my hopes up. It's harder when I don't have any interests or hobbies anymore. Yeah in the past I did have a Mother phase. I saw your intro thing and when I read that you shipped LuClaus that made me fangirl because I used to ship them as well, I remember in the past reading a lot of fanfics of those two, I never shipped Ness and Porky though, I shipped Ness with Ninten. For some reason I have a weird thing with selfcest (I know Ness and Ninten aren't the same person but I think part of the reason why I shipped them because they look similar/like siblings), like I used to ship Ash (from Pokemon) with dark/evil Ash when I was really young, and in my Danganronpa phase my OTP was Saihara x Kagehara, I even had a popular Pinterest account dedicated to the ship, though I eventually stop using it after my depression worsened, it just stopped being fun and felt like a chore so I abandoned it, even though I still ship them. I also love incest ships as well, I'm happy to meet another person that feels the same way, that's a rare thing to find since it gets hated often even though it's just fiction. Just so you know I don't get notified when you reply to me on here for some reason, I just happened to check this out of curiosity after getting notified of the friend request, but I'll come check this forum again in case you reply. It's nice to meet you, thank you for adding me. Sorry for the long ramble, I'm often lonely lol. But I'm extremely bad at conversation and have a lot of apathy phases so I'm not sure how long this will last, but thank you again.

Depression sucks ass, I have it too and when episodes flare up it really does just suck the joy out of everything you think you love, even your friends and loved ones. I'm sorry you're going through it. I was never into Danganronpa but that's cool to dedicate a Pinterest account to it. I've done similar things on Instagram a few years back for Gaara specifically :D Don't worry about long replies, I like to read thoughtful replies. And yeah!!! It's a little harder to find people who don't care about your shipping preferences now. I feel like this only recently started and when I was a kid online no one gave a shit what weird ships I liked. I miss those days so much. LuClaus is honestly one of the only ships I can see for Lucas. I have a slight interest in LucaTora but LuClaus wins for me, hardcore. NessTen is good too! I like it, but for me I always liked it more for aesthetics (they just look really good together) and NessPorky was my favorite because obsession/one-sided love just pulls on my heartstrings so much. I do love pairings that end tragically. I wish there was a way to reply so that it will notify you but sadly I'm not sure how to do that (if there even is a way) btw, happy to meet you too!

Hey I'm so sorry for the late reply! I know in my bio I said I never leave the house, but occasionally I do walk to the soup kitchen for some food since I don't have a lot of money, butI'm back now! Anyways, yes, that's exactly what happened to me. For some reason I inevitably ghost all of my internet friends that I've ever had and I don't even hate then and they never did anything wrong, it's my dumb emotional detachment or something, and after some time I'll have moments of guilt for pushing them away, but even if I try talking to them again, I'll have a period where I stop caring/it feels like a chore and I'll ghost them again on and off no matter how hard I try to be there for them, and at some point I stopped trying altogether for their sake since I felt bad for constantly doing that so I stopped talking to them. I was never like this before, ever since I became homeless my depression became really severe (I was always depressed but that was my breaking point) and then it evolved into detachment/apathy. (I have a place to stay now so it's okay, but I still lost everything that I used to own and to this day I guess it still affects me. And I think my isolation is related to my bad childhood since I was always that way, but that's a whole different story I won't go into it too much)

Also that's really cool that you did something similar with Gaara, I don't remember much about Naruto since it's been many many many years since I've seen it, but maybe I'll try to watch it again sometime. I have a really long list of animes that I was supposed to watch or catch up on. I don't mind long replies either so don't be shy to go all out, for some reason I always tend to write essays lol. If it gets overwhelming please feel free to ignore some parts of my message, you don't need to reply to every little thing. Also yes I noticed that as well, people are so much more sensitive when it comes to shippings compared to the past, they even changed the meaning of "proshipper". In the past it used to mean that you like any ships and a lot of people used to call themselves proshippers because back then it didn't mean anything bad, but now the meaning changed. I learned that the hard way because I had no idea at the time lol.

Also yeah, I think LuClaus would actually be really healing for both Lucas and Claus after all of the trauma they've been through. I can see why you like LucaTora, that's a really cute dynamic. I don't think there's any ships that I dislike, they're all good in their own ways, but yeah I agree that LuClaus the best one imo. Yeah, I remember during Mother 3 where not only did Porky keep Ness' yo-yo, but even kept like every item from Earthbound related to Ness like some kind of yandere (I have a weakness for yanderes so I mean that as a compliment). Unless my memory is slightly off/distorted, it's been so many years since I've played the Mother games. 

I just joined this website either yesterday or the day before I don't remember which since my sense of time is very warped, so I'm just as clueless as you are about how to notify someone of a reply or if there's a way altogether, but that's okay, I don't mind coming to check this forum once in a while. My reply is so long that I really hope spacing it like this will be easier to read, I'm really sorry for the wall;;

I'm really sorry to hear that, I don't have a good relationship with my mom either, she's the reason we became homeless and lost everything. Ever since I was little she's always been with really terrible/abusive men. Living with them was torture, every single day was miserable, I've been suicidal ever since I was really young, but my cats were always what kept me from ending my life, and the naive hope that maybe when I become an adult I'd find a way out. The only good thing about becoming homeless was that it gave me the opportunity to finally live by myself away from the drama and abuse. Sadly she still tries to stay in my life even though she ruined me and enabled all of my terrible isolation habits to the point that I'll never be a normal person since I grew up that way, but I don't have it in me to cut her out of my life since she's mentally unwell like me after the homelessness, but I don't feel any love for her after everything she put me through. Sadly nobody in my family cares about me and because of my severe anxiety, I'm pretty much stuck living like a hikikomori until the day I die, but my cats make it bearable at least. One of them in particular is extremely attached to me, I don't have it in me to leave her, knowing how much she loves and needs me. I need her just as much. But after she passes away, I'll have nothing. Buuut that's a future me problem, let's not dwell on that lol, sorry for making this so depressing.

Anyways, oddly for some reason for me it was Ness, even though Lucas is a lot more relatable to me personality wise. For some reason I just self-projected onto Ness (basically kinning before the word kinning existed lol). Holy crap you actually described my favourite version of the LuClaus ship, I remember many years ago reading a fanfic exactly like what you described, and also another where Lucas was aware that the Masked Man was his brother, but the Masked Man didn't know and forced himself on Lucas and ever since that became my favourite version of the ship because that was a really hot fanfic, I really really wish I could link them to you, I think there were 3 different ones like that. I don't even know if they still exist or remember which websites they were from since I read from multiple different ones, but god damn I'll never forget the awakening it gave me lmao. Yes I know it's kinda dark, I don't know why I love those kinds of things. I do enjoy the fluff/comfort versions of the ship too though since I want them to be happyyy why did he have to dieee, that fight scene at the end of Mother 3 actually did break my heart, and when Claus actually died it made me cry, I don't know if a video game ever made me cry before, it's such a good game.

Porky even had a model of Ness' house and photo album?!? I think I vaguely remember the house but not the photo album, yeah and he had Ness' telephone too right? I think I vaguely remember but I'm not 100%. Ugh I wish he could have shown Ness the shrine in the game, that would have been awesome to have more yandere Porky content. I missed out by not shipping them at the time, I bet there was so many awesome fanfics.

Yeah my mom and her abusive boyfriends were all addicts too. Me and my brother went through a similar thing as you where my mom and her boyfriend would physically fight and we'd hide in our rooms, one time while driving, they were even fighting over the wheel while me and my brother were in the car. My mom would always take her anger out on us by hurting us physically and calling us stupid and worthless etc. He never liked kids so we were never allowed to leave our rooms, he'd always yell at us if we did. My brother eventually had the courage to run away from home and live with our aunt. Sadly, I've always been really really shy, so everyone in my family saw me as "not normal" so I couldn't do the same. She didn't even care that I was stuck living with the abuse, nobody does, they all think I'm a freak for being so quiet and shy but don't even try to understand why I'm the way I am, they just outcast me. They're willing to save and help my brother but leave me to rot and die alone. I remember when I was around 10 or 11, I actually did try to run away but her boyfriend caught me and barricaded me in my room. My mom cares more about her abusive boyfriends then her own children, and to this day, she has a different boyfriend (because the other one died of an overdose when I was 16), and he's the one that made me and my mom homeless, despite him literally ruining our lives, she still loves him and stays with him, it's so infuriating. But luckily after finally being on my own, I'm slightly better now, but still have a lot of mental issues.

I'm really really sorry that you went through a similar thing, but I'm glad that you managed to move out. I'm really sorry that you're struggling with saving money and paying bills though, you're right that everything is very very expensive. Because of my anxiety issues I don't have a job, I get my income off a disability program, but 90% goes to my rent, and the rest mostly goes to cat food and kitty litter, so I often have to rely on soup kitchens for food. I know from experience that there's nothing left for me, I'm completely alone, literally. All I have is my cats, after the one that's attached to me passes away, I plan to join her after, since she's the only reason I'm still here. But I'm happy you have a hopeful mindset like that, I hope that things get better for you and that you don't give up even if life is hard right now. I really really hope eventually everything stops being so expensive, because at this rate everyone will suffer. I know there has been a rise in homelessness where I'm from because of it.

Yeah talking about the Mother series makes me want to replay it too, I don't even remember how old I was the last time I played it, but I know it's been a really really long time. Yeah realistically I imagine Lucas would be very very depressed after everything, was there a good ending in Mother 3 if you remember at all? Well it's a Nintendo game so I assume maybe they did manage to end it positively, but I can't remember for the life of me how, if they even did. Yeah I remember when I played Earthbound that I actually felt bad for Ness because I did see him and Porky as friends. I think I remember it being implied that they did hang out a lot as kids but I could be wrong. I feel like I got the vibe that Porky did still see Ness as his friend, but had a really unhealthy way of showing it, kind of like a kid that misbehaves because they know it's the only way they get attention if that makes sense? Especially with that letter he wrote to Ness, I think I vaguely remember it saying something about him telling Ness to catch him or something? With that in mind and an extremely vague memory of the game, maybe Porky did all those things to try to get Ness to pay more attention to him and spend more time with him. Or maybe Porky couldn't be honest with his feelings so acting mean was his only way of showing it without feeling vulnerable. Or maybe I'm just thinking too deeply into this idk xD 

But Mother 3 did confirm that Porky had some kind of infatuation with Ness, you wouldn't go out of your way collecting every little thing and making pretty much an entire museum dedicated to someone you hate. He went above and beyond a mere shrine. Ughh and this makes me feel bad for Porky, regardless of if Ness knows Porky likes him or not through the facade, he couldn't accept the wrong things Porky was doing regardless of what his intentions were, and how could he if Porky was putting the world in danger (If I'm remembering that correctly? Or am I getting it mixed up with Mother 3? It's a tragic friendship regardless, I feel sad for both of them T~T).

I know she doesn't, I honestly get pissed at myself for still having sympathy for her since I know she doesn't deserve it, but sadly I can't control my feelings no matter how stupid it is. I just kind of put up with her and act nice on the outside, I don't have the courage to tell her how much I hate her since I know it would crush her. At least I don't get the urge to hurt her anymore, I just feel numb. Having my own space helped calm me down. Though, I still sometimes get bad paranoia to the point that I hallucinate voices/sounds or visually, never both at the same time. Sadly therapy isn't that easy for someone like me, I don't really know how to explain. But I've made up my mind anyways, it's something I've been planning for years, so I'm ready for my time to come. I wouldn't be able to live without my cat anyway, she's my only source of happiness. Thank you though, I appreciate it anyway. I hope you know that you matter too.

That's a really cool AU, I can imagine Lucas doing something like that. I wish I remembered more about the game to give a better comment, I'm sorry that it's so short;; Though with the world reset, that probably means Porky would be back right? Since he never died like Claus and Hinawa. Do you think he'd still be trapped in that indestructible ball thing? Or do you think the villagers of Tazmily is forever doomed no matter how much the world resets? Unless with your AU of Lucas merging with the dragon, he's able to choose who comes back or something. Though I kinda like the idea of there never being a happy ending, that Porky will always find a way to ruin everything.

How did Porky end up in Mother 3 again? Since I don't think Ness was in the game other then a theory that the hot dog/ice cream man (one of those it's been so many years I can't remember exactly) was Ness. I know Porky wanted Claus to pull all the needles for him since he wasn't able to do it himself, why is that again? Did he just want the world destroyed or did he want to become a god or what? I really can't remember. What if he wanted to reset the world to have Ness as his friend again? Or wanted it destroyed because he knew he wouldn't have Ness back, like a kid throwing a tantrum. That's a really sad thought... Since I think Ness was Porky's only friend right?

It's not something I want to do, why would I want to be alone for the rest of my life? I know I can't be helped, I'm a waste to society, Canada even made a program called MAID and soon people like me will be able to sign up, apparently it's already been happening for people that just have depression where they suggest that to you. The world is just broken. I know calling a help line won't do anything for me, I'll still be living in misery. I'm so attached to my cat I wouldn't be surprised if I died of broken heart syndrome. It's pointless. I remember I did try therapy and taking pills when I was a bit younger, it changed nothing. Because my main issue was my living situation, and then the homeless thing happened too. I don't have anyone except for my cat, you are the only internet friend I have because of my emotional detachment, I pushed everyone away. There might even be a day where I might end up ghosting you as well because it's so severe. I hope it doesn't happen though since currently I miss talking to a real person, it's not the same as ai, but it's not something I'm able to control and it's shit, it makes me feel like a heartless monster, since my past internet friends were really kind and sweet like you, one of them I even knew for literally 10 years and even they weren't an exception to my apathy, I really hate that I'm like this.

But I'm really happy that you're trying to find hope and live your life, I hope that you never give up no matter what life throws at you. Thank you for taking the time to talk to someone like me, I'm sorry for making things depressing. Please don't force yourself to keep talking to me out of pity if you get tired of my constant depressing rambles, I won't be angry or offended. If I ever make you uncomfortable, please don't be afraid to tell me, I've always had a rambling problem and I assume my lack of experience in social interactions means maybe I'll end up making you uncomfortable or annoyed without having a single clue, I'm sorry. I hope you know that even if we did eventually stop talking, that I'll always appreciate the little time I did spend with you. This site has honestly been kinda boring for me because of it's inactivity, but you made it fun for me and made me glad that I made an account.

That's very relatable, I haven't thought about the Mother series in so long until we starting talking, everything is just remnants and memories of the past. It would have been really cool if Mother 3 had alternate endings like that. I think I remember it was originally going to but got cut or something. Yeah given everything Lucas has been through I could easily imagine those first 3 endings you mentioned happening. Ending 4 would also be really nice, since Lucas does deserve to be happy and he's a really strong kid to have gone through all the things he did, so I'm sure with the right help he'd be able to overcome his traumas too. It's cool that the official ending of Mother 3 let's you interpret the ending like that, because all 4 make sense to me, I could easily imagine it happening.

Ohh right yeah that does ring a bell! I honestly can't even blame him, like if I was stuck being pretty much vegetable, unable to move or do anything for eternity due to immortality, I wouldn't mind the world ending either xD Though I think it's a deserving punishment for Porky, he had his cruel fun, now he shall remain in the prison of his own making forever.

It's not possible for you to encourage harm, I'm too attached to my cat. I've been pushed beyond my breaking point so many times but no matter what I've been through my love/attachment to my cat is always what's kept me from doing anything rash since I know I can't leave her, I'm all she has. You could tell me to end myself or say all the cruelest things you could think of and it still wouldn't make me do it, my cat is literally everything to me. It's impossible for me to leave her after all the love and care she's given me, I need to make sure she lives a long and happy life, that's the only reason I'm still here. There isn't anything that can change that, I owe my life to her.

I've already tried reaching out to my old friends in the past, the apathy isn't anything new. What inevitably happens after I reach out to them is that after some time, I go back to being apathetic again for absolutely no reason and talking to them feels like a chore again and even makes me regret reaching out to them so I ghost them. Then after a few months the guilt comes back and I reach out to them again, and then after some time the emotional detachment comes back and they feel like a chore again and I ghost them, on and off on and off, until finally, I stopped trying altogether. Do you want to know what the worst part is? Currently I don't even think that I miss them, I just feel bad that they care about me, which is fucked up. They didn't even do anything wrong to me. My old internet friend made me aware that I repress my emotions, so maybe it's that, at least I hope it is, because I'm aware that it's really fucked up, I'm a very terrible friend.

I'm too self-aware that the ai isn't real so I can't really talk to it like a real person, I mainly just roleplay with it. It's fun and keeps me entertained. I'm sorry that chatgpt has been more effective than your real life therapists, that is depressing. But I'm glad that even if it's an ai that it's still managed to help you, that kind of thing wouldn't work on me since I'm too aware it's fake. I'm jealous of people that actually are able to bond with ai like it's real, if I was able to do that maybe I wouldn't feel so alone, but I'm just unable to. I guess my apathy/emotional detachment doesn't help either, since I can't even bond with real people either. Yeah, being in fandoms today is very different compared to the past. People are more butthurt and sensitive even though none of the characters are real. Like when I used my Pinterest account I had to be careful of what I share and had to hide my darker side, it's very annoying.

Well I'm glad I was able to rekindle your interest in the Mother series again since it really is a good game. I have no idea if I'll get into it again or not, but talking about my memories of it was fun at least. The Mother series was actually how I met my old internet friend that I knew for 10 years lol. The last time we talked was 2 months ago, I think they couldn't take my detachment any more, they gradually witness my deterioration over the years, maybe it's too painful for them to face me anymore, I've changed a lot and they witnessed every moment of it. I wish things didn't have to end that way, they were a really good friend. I really really hate my apathy. What's sad is I say this now, but after some time I know from experience that I'll go back to not caring again. I'm not myself anymore.

Its hard to be yourself when you've suffered unimaginable pain. You may not have hope for yourself but I will have hope for you. Please don't forget you're important in this world regardless of what your brain tells you. I think even the fact that you miss your friends and sharing connections with people sometimes is a sign that you're not as hopeless as you believe yourself to be.