Ekko and his struggles in Zaun that is not acknowledged just for the sake of saving powder

As we have known, Ekko is a very selfless character nonetheless, if bro had to choose between shooting himself or see the people of zaun suffer, he would pull the trigger no doubt. BUT what people haven't talked about is Ekkos struggle during zaun, He is probably a lost boy, waiting for Vi after seeing benzo died, he probably took his time washing the blood off his clothes, it is sickening that he was left alone in the basement to wait, only for him to wait for a lost cause. That is probably terrifying for a literal kid. He had lost EVERYTHING and he had to sit and wait for Vi and the others to come back, he was probably so anxious about it. Thinking they're dead or alive, I wonder how long word gotten out that Vander has fallen and Silco rises, Ekko probably took his time chasing out the Chem barons, saving other kids and finding a safe haven for the others "everybody here is an addict or a victim" imagine how LONG it took to save the addicted, to heal the bruised victims, at his young age to adult. That's what he did all his life; be selfless. That slap Powder gave to him probably hurted him into avoiding her, since it was her choice even though she's the only person he had left, all that hardworking, all the investigating. Only to be slapped by the person you wanna save most, idk how long it took for him to move on and respect her decision, he could only sit by and gaze at how genius she's became, someone who isn't holding herself back and doing what she thinks best in order to survive, the fact he just let's her do what she wants, freezes to their encounters, blinding his eyes thinking she's madness in order to hit her easily OOOH THE AGONY AHHHHHHH