My disgusting form.

I am so very cruel. 
Tainted completely and to the bone.
Focus now! On the blackness of the ichor dripping from the open wound that is me.
Focus now! On your pure as light soul. 
Focus now. On the ritual of purification that will not make me half the person you are. 

I am in love with irredeemable evil you say? 
I am sick, perverted, and disgusting as I am.
Take my rotten flesh filled with maggots and witness my rot.
Spiral my guilt into piles till I die...
Till I spill "I'm sorry" like tears
Till I bend my spine back into place to match yours. 

See the ichor now in me. Contained. 
It begs to take your form in feeble attempt-
To imitate pureness and innocence.
For I am everything but.

- Mei Dugong

(Blah blah blah something always being disgusted with myself blah blah blah)