Therapy is for normies

I swear the only reason I'm so messed up is because of how fucked up my life is.

My therapist is useless she is a decent person and all but she says the same shit every time. This is probably because of how outlandish my situation is but it's not like that helps. Therapy is for who people have a normal, stable life who are just in a bad mood or some shit. I can't change how I feel until my circumstances actually change and I can't just get better in the meantime. 

Anyways I'm about to get sent to my Dad (who is a shitty person and lives in a village near the fuckin Arctic (I know, I can't get my head around it either)) and there's fuckin no way I'm going to let that happen so I'm about to do something real stupid but it just might work. I've discussed this in detail on Reddit and I'm too lazy to write it up now unless someone comments asking me to.

I hate asking for help online because it feeds into my self-hatred and I know there's gonna be people who are gonna be saying "wAiT tIlL uR'rE 18" which I just can't do but again what am I expecting because of how unusual things are.

 maybe the thing I need right now is some pep talk idk