Help me figure my faith out?

I've realized I'm pagan a while ago but I'm living in a house where everything I do is criticized until I either give up on it or keep quiet about it, so I decided to not follow alomg with aby pagan practice.

Now I feel the need of having a religion more than ever, qnd paganism is the only one that I actually can vibe with and believe in. I'm very unknowledgeable about it though, I wanted to know if there's any rules, where to begin and where to look in.

I believe I am one with all beings and once we die we become one thing. As if we become cells or body parts to a new living form, similar to a fictional religion from dead space called Unitology, but I believe we are all connected while still alive and I don't see death as a gateway to eternal bliss, just as a part of life.

I think the circle of life is eternal and is sacred and everything is alive, in some way, if it makes sense.

Does what I believe in soind similar to any actual pagan religion? If not do you jnow what I should look for perhaps? Just looking for advice, thanks in advance to anyone who's read this.