What was your journey of realizing you are trans?

I started out thinking I was genderfluid which changed to nonbinary which changed to demiboy which finally just changed to trans ftm. This took a good minute for me to figure out LMAO my sexuality journey is even more complex LMAO

Me to Ren T-T.

ive always wanted to be a boy, but my trans awaking was a will wood song (its I / Me / Myself)

not really feeling comfortable being a girl (having a big chest and whatnot just very uncomfortable in my own skin after puberty) and me envying men and looking at them made me think "damn i wanna be one" also by the fact when i was little i'd lean into more boyish stuff  also somehow the diary of a wimpy kid movies helped because i wanted to look just like Rodrick (who wouldn't?) self discovery is weird how it plays out lol

Damn, i thought i was a masc lesbian too... Then i found out what "transgender" means, and it confused me at first, but once i got it i was like "oh wow cool, good for them" and after that, it just sort of lingered in the back of my mind... like slowly approaching...

The internet was my tool to test the waters. often, i remained "ambiguous" with my gender and it felt good when i ended being interpreted as a boy, or, masc as anyway. At this point i forgot about trans people, until i sort of fell into more accepting online spaces, that were open about lgbtq topics, and then it hit me... I wanted to try this out...

Many stuff happened later. I doubted myself sometimes, but i've overcome what made me feel that way, and I can now see the truth, very clearly: This is who i am, and this is who i love being...

mmmm when I was real little I didn't quite get that other people saw me as a girl, like it just didn't seem like a possibility to me. then around 3rd or 4th grade I heard about other transnpeople and I realized that when other people saw me they were seeing a girl, completely messed me up my dysphoria was the worst it's ever been. (there was also a good couple of months where I thought I was a lesbian because I couldn't see myself as a girl dating a guy, but a girl dating a girl didn't seem so bad) I was so desperate to get away from being a girl that I just called myself a trans boy and refused to look into it further. around 5th or 6th grade I got curious and started thinking I might be nonbinary, or a demiboy, or xenic, but just could never find one that fit me perfectly. I played around with so many labels (and it was really nice!!) but eventually I just started calling myself queer (around 7th or 8th grade?). I'm about to go into 10th and this is still how I feel the most comforting describing myself, just a queer gay guy, maybe not a boy in the way others would define being a boy, but that's what I am :]

When I was in freshman year, I was in a awkward state with my gender. I was at a state where I felt so self conscious with my appearance that I started to dress myself more feminine since I was afab, and I thought it would at least boost my confidence(which it didn't). Then in the middle of sophomore year I realized that I had I always had a strange feeling whenever I was labeled a 'girl' often.

And though I enjoyed feminine things like makeup or painting nails, being labeled a girl especially a boy wasn't something I saw myself as. So I found out I was nonbinary and was kept in the closet for a while until I came out to friends who were closer to me.

I wanted to be androgynous at first cause I thought that's something I should be when I first turned enby, but then I realized it was kinda dumb because being fem/masc/andro doesn't really equal gender. So in Senior year, I started to touch into feminine parts of myself which made me feel like myself and helped me express my gender identity more.

I thought I was lesbian for a while, but my pronouns were he/she and it didn't go through my head that I was trans :sob: I've been trans for 4 years now tho!! i started experimenting with names and pronouns and i researched, turns out im berrisexual and polyromantic and trans :] 

when i was a kid i mostly hung out with other boys and felt more like myself with them though i didnt start feeling discomfort with my gender until i was 11. i went through a couple different labels like trans, nonbinary, demiboy, but when i was 14 i began surpressing it and trying to feminise myself. i felt like i was uncomfortable with being a girl because i just wasnt good enough at it yet. so i grew my hair out and wore girly things and makeup and it was the most miserable time of my life. im now 16 and out to many people as trans and have gone back to short hair and boys clothes and i feel a lot more happy with myself :)

it was so chaotic and i think it was jst me exploring labels like kid me discovered the internet and the term nonbinary and went with that for a while until i discovered genderfluid so i went with that and i also came out to my mom in that same time. then i discovered there was also genderfae and genderfaun so i realized genderfaun fit me more after i thought i was genderfae 4 a while but then i jst realized ive felt exactly the same for several months and i jst accepted i was trans