here i am again
capsizing with no one savior
this time
no, ships are sailing while im sinking
alone in that portal lake
i did my time
with no one by my side this time
my room doesn't feel like mine anymore
since you last stepped into it
carelessly open and shut doors
like that last time
theres a lack of me in everything i do
playing imposter in my skin
not recognizing my own limbs
i want to feel at home
i might run down a road
smash my phone and leave everything alone
anything becomes everything to me
not blinking till the moon leaves
theres a stinging in my skull
that just grows and grows
im looking for a remedy
and searching for something new
yellow bile in fluorescent blue