seeking advice

I'm at the lowest point of my life right now. Only mentally though. I don't know why. 

What am I so stressed about anyway? The only problem I have to worry about is school. Well... It's not like I have much to worry about school anyway. My laziness is my only enemy. Getting the highest grades is no big deal for me.

Maybe I'm just burned out. I don't know. I doubt everything I feel. Everything I do. I don't know why I'm like this. Self-awareness is a curse.

I've tried to change but I always end right back where I started. I guess it's because I'm subconsciously afraid to change. It's weird but I kind of like myself in this state. But I know I have to change. This is a toxic life I'm living. If I don't change I'm never going to get far in life.