living again

this sounds so stupid but,

I decided to give life a chance again. I'll start living my life again, I promise. I'll start taking care of myself more, I'll talk and hang out with people again because I'm not that old to experience life fully. I want to see what the future holds, I want to know who I will meet and make friends with, I want to know who will have a grudge against me and turn their backs on me, I want to see the beauty of growing up. I will continue living to see the sun rise and set every day, I'll continue to live to taste my grandma's good cooking. I will continue to live to feel the cold water run across my skin during showers, and I'll still live to see my family every day.

I know that my life is shitty and all, but I want to look forward to the good future that I'll hopefully experience. It's really fun to be alive.

not a vent or something