Struggles with friends/relationships

To be honest...Idk how other people do it, but i feel like I'll never really have friends. Online or irl, seems like no matter what I do, if im angry, happy, sad, are myself, try to act like them, talk or shut up, doesn't matter. No matter what I do everyone either leaves, ghosts me, blocks me, lose interest, or turn out to be weird ass bad people. Idk how others feel but this has just become the norm for me 

I feel that way too sometimes. I am part of a friend group consisting of 4 ppl (including me). Here's the messy status of the group...

- Friend 1: I don't actually like her because she has talked bad about me to other friends in the past + we can never have a genuine conversation

- Friend 2: This friend is very nice but I always have to text her first. She never reaches out to me and it makes me feel like she doesn't care to talk to me. 

- Friend 3: This friend is someone I'm very close with except she is always sleeping or her phone is dead. It is practically impossible to get a hold of her. 

Oh and a friend of mine who has been friends with me since kindergarten hasn't responded to me in months. I am pretty sure that friendship has come to an end :/ I always try to tell myself that nothing is permanent. Friends who you think will last forever... can disappear in an instant. If you've been having no luck with getting friends because ppl never respond to you, that just means you're searching for friends in the wrong places. If you've been having no luck with getting friends because ppl continuously ghost you, then that means you haven't been able to spark anyone's interest yet. If you've sparked someone's interest, no matter how busy they may be, they'll take time out of their day to contact you. BTW: I can be your friend :)