I'm stuck on Bedrock and I fucking hate it

I am stuck on Minecraft Bedrock edition and I hate it.

I bought Minecraft on PS4 years ago when it was still a separate edition. The best part about the console edition games was that THEY WERE MADE FOR CONSOLE, THEY WERE OPTIMIZED FOR CONSOLE.

When I migrated to Bedrock after console edition support ended, I had no idea just how bad Bedrock could get. Now, it's common for me to DIE WHILE THE WORLD IS LOADING. Just yesterday, I "fell from a high place" WHILE THE FUCKING GAME WAS LOADING UP THE WORLD. I wasn't even in the SKY or anywhere high when I left the world, I was on the FUCKING GROUND.

I wish I was on Java instead!