Can't bring myself to see anyone

I'm a 30yr, 4'10", she/her, cis, queer

It's been so hard trying to let myself reach out and go to my local clubs and bars and try to talk up a nice lady and see where things go. I'm to afraid I wont be good enough or that they will get scared off because I struggle a lot with depression and other mental struggles. I do hope one day to hold the hand of a woman who matches my vibe and that I can make smile.