You ever just like think about life and existence

ALL THE TIME I tend to spiral about it weekly actually!

I used to think about it all the time until i found out about this philosophy called the absurdism which basically claims that it is meaningless (absurd) to try to figure out the universe's meaning or nature. 

(Just in case you like reading there's some good books about it like The Stranger and The Myth of Sisyphus from Camus and Waiting for Godot, by Samuel Becket).