what does "Anarchism" mean to you

A couple of different things:

Firstly, defiance of the establishment, to the extent that most people can no longer be controlled or coerced. I would call this 'purposed anarchism'.

Secondly, the abandonment of all societal restraint and/or abandonment of care for the vulnerable. I would call this selfish anarchism/absolute anarchism.

I have never read about the second form in the literature I've read.

It is an interesting way of thinking, and some aspects of it actually helped. I've always felt very resrtrained socially to do a lot of things in public; and the idea that social norms are an external force of control and not actually how your mind works helped me realize nobody will judge everything I do.

On a political side, I have mixed feelings because, again, it's an interesting way of seeing the world and it feels so aligned with what I believe; but at least here in Mexico, anarchists are actually right-wingers posing because they thought the punks from the movies were cool, so I don't get too much into "anarchist" circles as they are a bunch of Xennials or Boomers thinking they're cool for appropriating a subculture that's actually against their  beliefs.

that's a good reply, thank you for the interesting insight into the politics of Mexico.