TIPS NEEDED // POEM

CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE READ THIS POEM I MADE?? i want the message to be clear but i fear its a bit cloudy?? i tried getting tips from people close to me but idk i want all the tips i can get!!

Each day shall start the same,

Risen with both hope and disdain,

Yearning for a time when I can put away the facade,

Perfect, yet quietly flawed.

Longing to someday break away from the chains of my judgment.

My space is where I can breathe,

Where I can shield myself from the anguish waiting for me beneath,

The cold, harsh reality that is life,

Fought daily with anticipation, excitement, and strife,

Longing to someday break away from the chains of my judgment.

Alas, as I trek away from my space,

The real world is what I face,

My eyes instantly tethered to the passion and conversation of the people,

Each person’s face lit up with delight,

Which for me is a steep hill,

Oh! How I wish to be that person of chatter,

That person who thinks of others’ notions as no matter,

How I wish to set myself free,

Longing to someday break away from the chains of my judgment.

In a crowd of many I seem to be singled out,

Nobody else seems to be troubled or in doubt,

Why must I be so fearful?

Why is it that instead of relishing my youth, I stand tearful?

Why is it so easy for others to feel?

Why do I bear the need to constantly change for others’ appeal?

Every day I wish to allow myself to breathe and be content,

Longing to somehow break away from the chains of my judgment.

please no judging :C this is only my first poem that i don't do for school and i really want to get into poetry sooo... thanks if you're even reading this far !