Mentally Unstable feelings

that's so real

I mean it's not like I want to die and I will chase death, but life doesn't really have a point, its rly temporary and honestly it's shit

there are as many beautiful moments as there are very shitty moments

agreed, life has great moments but also makes you wanna wish you never wake up again 

i get it

it is a lovely time to be here, but sometimes we can't really feel or perceive the love

don't know what to do about that

Just always look for the positive, easier said than done though. Even when having a shit day or week or month there will always be a positive. Basically i'm saying everyday find something that went well even if it seems impossible, like maybe you got your favourite snack, or you bet an impossible video game, literally anything. Because you'll start to see the good around you rather than all the other shit. 

Okay hands are cramping and i think i js wrote a whole bunch of nothingness. 

praying for yall respectfully!

Yea sometimes I wish I had a different life. or I wish I could go back in time and change some things so that my life would be better now. I wish I wasn't so anxious and shy and ugly and my personality wasn't so bad and everything.

sorry, don't mean for this to come across as winey 

this is very true, imo.

i am in a constant state of feeling a sickly amount of joy to wanting to kms at any slight inconvenience.

 i quite literally have the mental state of a bipolar person who should be locked in a padded room with no access to the outside world.

this is very true, imo.

i am in a constant state of feeling a sickly amount of joy to wanting to kms at any slight inconvenience.

 i quite literally have the mental state of a bipolar person who should be locked in a padded room with no access to the outside world.

this is the best I have seen someone put this. I want to be dead but I also don't want to die. it's weird to think that I hate myself and my life but I wan to live and also can want to die every day. i just wish i was never born but i also love living, i would have been happier though if I just never existed.

Life has no meaning, but you got to create your own meaning in life. That could be achieving a dream or the end goal of life.

I'm holding onto the belief that my life will be more fun and honestly a lot better when I become an adult. I'll be free to do whatever I want with zero criticism. That's the main reason why my blood is still pumpin and kickin and not in some grave. If you aren't an adult yet, at least hold on to that belief too.

Plus suicide just sounds bad in all directions. It'll probably make you feel like a coward if you do.