I HATE MY MOM.

I fucking hate her so much. I don’t actually fucking care if she pushed my big headed self out of her. I just want to kill her. Ive been noticing that she doesn’t care for me, so why should I care for her? My mom and dad never gave me fucking attention when I was a child. They would just be outside and smoke weed or cigarettes, while I would stay inside and wait for my parents to make me food even though they said “sure, in 2 minutes”. My mom is a narcissist that pretends to care about ME but only cares about herself and my younger sister, and my dad is a fucking anti-alterhuman, homophobic bitchy-ass christian who is probably starting to have hallucinations.

They had a divorce two years ago, which added to my trauma, and the constant bullying since 1st grade.

They know I’m fucking suicidal, and what do they do? WHAT DO THEY FUCKING DO!? THEY SIT AROUND AND ACT LIKE ITS NOTHING. I WISH I HAD MY OLDER SISTER AND HER GIRLFRIEND WITH ME SO I CAN HUG THEM AND CRY ON THEIR SHOULDER. IM TIRED OF THIS. I JUST WANT TO FUCKING DIE. I DON’EVEN THINK MY IRL FRIENDS EVEN FUCKING CARE. I WANT TO STAB MY PARENTS, TORTURE THEM, AND KILL THEM CONSTANTLY SO I CAN FUEL MY HAPPINESS. IM STARTING TO HAVE HALLUCINATIONS, SMALL ITTY BITTY HALLUCINATIONS. 

I THINK I MIGHT EVEN BE DEPRESSED BECAUSE OF THE CONSTANT SADNESS AND LAZINESS.